itching for "later".

hello, again, blog o' mine. no, i haven't forsaken thee.
just been busy. or at work, where there are dumb blocks on certain sites,
such as blogspot.com. (like they want me to WORK or something??!!)
sure, i can go look at blogs all day (which i do), but when i desire to sign in and join the fun .. oh no. it blocks me. in the rudest way.

so, here i am. taking my good pal Jenna's advice, and typing my blog in an email, to post at a later time, on a computer WITHOUT limitations. :) oops. was i not supposed to tell you that?? oh well ..

i am in a very weird season. it's not my fav. (autumn is my fav, if you were curious)
it's alot of waiting and wondering .. being unsure, trusting.

i'm a risk taker. or at least i like to think i am.
i don't like taking the "wise" road,
or doing what everyone thinks i "should be" doing.
i revel in the thrill of doing the opposite of usual.
yet, sometimes .. SOMEtimes .. i have that slight pinch of fear.
i fear that i am not prepared enough for this next "risk", or that a few years from now, i will regret not taking the school route and getting a "grown up job".

but, then, the rebellion kicks in again,
and i fold my arms, stomp my feet and say "NO!".
i refuse to ignore my heart.
i refuse to live a life always doing the "smart" thing.
using what we naively call "wisdom", as a crutch to avoid jumping off the cliff.


here's the deal, i will probably ALWAYS look back at my life
and wish i could go back and "tweak" a few things ..
like choosing better looking boys to waste my time with .. ha! kidding. kind of ..

but, seriously .. every choice we make affects who we become.
which can be completely overwhelming, but the refreshing side of it is that God's grace on our human-ness is that He really will guide our steps and light our path, when our hearts are FOR Him. me and my crazy flesh are in dire need of that grace. for real.

cheers to jumping off the cliff!

inspiration

if you are a fan of Invisible Children, like i am,
you will love this video, like i did. :)

we all need a reminder of what life is really about ..
especially this time of year ..

worthless worry

It's Saturday around the Myrick house, and for the first time in a while, we are all here and can actually be LAZY. It's 5:00 and we're still in our pj's! Before you jump to conclusions and throw judgement at us, we have actually accomplished a few house chore things that we never get to during the week. :)

I was having a convo with the parents this morning-ish, about Christmas, money, struggles ... life in general. It's weird, because I have noticed so many people are struggling this year with the financial ability to do Christmas the "good ole Western way" ... yet, so many people are counting their blessings and realizing what life really is all about.

I've been contemplating and praying about the "next step" in life for a few months now, and I can so easily get overwhelmed with the what if's, money, and the basic internal struggle we all feel about being "where God wants us to be" ...

Today, I just decided to stop. All this worry and stress is so worthless. We were put on the earth to LOVE. Period. To accept this unimaginable Love and Grace, and somehow try to learn our part in spreading it to others. I cannot live my life worrying about everything I see with my eyes .. because I know that, ultimately, those things will fade. I WILL live my life searching out the heart of my Creator. And finding out what my tiny part in this big love story between Him and His Creation is.


SO ... let's do this together, shall we? I need you. You need me.
We can't do this alone.

Let's live fully and love much. All this other stuff isn't worth our stress ...

dear diary

i mean, blog!
i miss thee.

i wish i wasn't a grandma.
i'm way too tired at the end of the day to type my thoughts ..

i know, i know. it's coming.
i will be back on the bandwagon before you know it.

until then, be patient ....

loves of my life.

i can't even begin to explain what being on Africa's soil meant to me.
these are absolutely the most beautiful people on the planet.

the way they love our great God is so passionate and full of trust in Him. they know how to rely on Him and believe that He is who He says He is.

my heart is there.




more to come ....

heading to the motherland ...

first of all, i feel like no one reads this.
except for jenna, of course. :)
either way .. i should journal,in general, more often.
so, here goes ...





i cannot believe i leave in 3 days! i am so overjoyed, i may not sleep on the plane. HA! yeah .... riiight. i could fall asleep just thinking about that flight ...

i have been waiting for this for so long ... it doesn't seem real. this war-torn nation has gripped my heart so deep .. i most likely will be of no help to my team, considering how overwhelmed with a variety of emotions i will be.

don't worry folks, i will take plenty of photos, and give every child a hug from you.

the BIG question: will blaire return safely, or "accidentally" lose her passport so she will have to STAY in africa?

we shall see ......

jane austen

i just finished watching Becoming Jane.
it was so lovely. i always enjoy jane austen's writings ..
plus, i am such a fool for james mcavoy.

my weak moment was when he told her ..
"I am yours, Jane. I am yours, heart and soul."

ah .. one day ..


i do not want to go to work tomorrow.
i would much rather ....
well, alot of things.


i need an irish cup o tea ...